Wednesday, June 12, 2013

Reflections at Two Months


Master and I have been on our Master/pet journey now for two months (he actually wished me "Happy 2 Month Anniversary" in the shower yesterday morning). In those two months and several months leading up to them we have researched many Internet sites and personal blogs on topics spanning BDSM, “Taken in Hand”, "This Thing We Do", "Domestic Discipline", orgasm denial, forced orgasm, spanking, kink and fetishes.

It was two months ago today Master asked me to be his sex slave (a day he now refers to as "Slave Day"). When I said yes I agreed that I would make my body accessible to him for whatever purpose and whenever he wanted (within hard limits of course). I would no longer masturbate except under his direction, and he would control when and how I orgasm. At the time this was all about sex, hot kinky sex.

Very quickly, and with my insistence, we decided to go beyond the bedroom with dominance and submission. We are experimenting with disciplinary spankings (though Master is a bit of a softy and has been working on getting his head around this concept after so many years of trying not to cause me pain). Master is now managing my diet. We've dabbled in orgasm denial – I’m not very good at this, but discovered some things about myself in the process (more on this in a future blog).

The last two months have been a rebirth in our relationship and are filled with many firsts, lots of physical and emotional intimacy, orgasms uncountable, and more joy than I've experienced in some time. Pretty good for a couple in their third decade of marriage. Heck, we are even taking long walks together again which we haven't done in years! We are still trying to figure out what to call what we are doing, and how to structure this new phase of our relationship. 

Today, I received the following texts from Master while at work (capitalization, punctuation, and spelling corrected for readability):
pet. I feel based on some of your past comments that I have not been the Master you desire. Too soft to bend you into submission and obedience. Too slow to use spankings as an attitude adjuster, even too soft in managing your diet. Masters must study, learn and strive to excel just like pets! I want you to get what you need so this thing we do works and lasts.
Now that we have explored TTWD, I am finding we have a much better relationship, we spend more quality time together, we set a better example for the kids, home life is much less stressful and much more harmonious. And, most importantly, you truly seem happy for the first time in a long, long while. I went into this for kinky sex and have been completely blown away by the nonsexual benefits and changes. Now I want to take this deeper as Master. I don’t want this to slip away from us.

Wow! That is probably the most romantic thing my Peter/Husband/Master has ever said to me! I’m looking forward to going further with TTWD. It excites me, scares me (a little), but I know for sure it won’t be boring, and that we will have a better relationship as a result of it.

1 comment:

  1. Ah now you are getting somewhere but it takes two...I was leading her down this path and with enough Dr. Phil I think she would have followed but everything with her was stick and carrot you on the other hand were a totally willing subject...emphasis on SUB!

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